_the sudden urge to update.

recently i have learnt that karma has caught up to me. something that i have done in the past has now happened in a sort of a similiar way to me.

a good trusted friend of mine betrayed me and yet pretended to me as though nothing happened. it was a huge slap of karma on my face. but i am glad this happened cause now i can see things from ur point of view.

i didnt want to do the same thing to her as u did to me cause i know how sad n guilty that made me. when i saw her, i saw a reflection of me. so i gave her another chance to talk and just let all her emotions out. i stepped down so low just to hear her side of the story thinking there was some reasonable explainations for what she did but all she could do was mutter. it was very dissapointing cause all i wanted from her was an apology so that everything could return to the way they were. unfortunately she didnt. now we are no longer in talkin terms. but at least i made an effort to patch things up.

the truth is i have always wanted to apologise to u but i always thought that my act was so despicable u can never forgive me. i rehearsed my apology tonnes of time. "so sorry i ever did that to you. i understand how u felt when u heard the news." but who was i kidding. how can i understand how she felt when i've never been in that situation b4. but now i can honestly tell i understood how u felt.

with that being said, Simran i am sorry for what i did to u a couple of years ago. u were a really good friend to me but all i did was hurt u. i dint even apologise to u. and it is a fact that has been bothering me all this while. so when the same thing happened to me, i realised karma was trying to tell me something.

i completely understand if ur not able to forgive me but i just wanted u to know that i am sorry. i am really sorry.